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Very personal "Diary" of the dark period of my life. the sequence is not correct, and not sure how to get them in the right order.
this is about the moment I got severely depressed (and not realising this), and thought I was really literally going crazy.
that is how it felt in my head; it could not stop.
then while I eventually got 'officially'diagnosed and was getting help, something really bad happened to me. I trusted a friend and he misused that trust in a the most extreme way possible.
I did not let that get me knocked of my feet, and continued with help.
these paintings were made many years later, when I had my own studio, where I could painting the middle of the night, with the right music to enhance the feeling and emotions of back then. it was an extra 'beautiful way' to be able to get these feelings onto canvas. those paintings were created within 3 weeks, and each painting did not take longer than max 2 hours, I think. ..
It was really expressionistic; use strong shapes and strong colors.
I will always embrace these paintings. they are a part of me. and only very few people know the real story..